Posts tagged ‘faith’

May 19, 2018

A Woman’s Dua for her Future Husband – Top Viewed Post of All Times

by Khanum

بسم الله

It comes as a pleasant surprise that the seeds we sow unknowingly, give fruits in time, and we get to see them grow into beautiful things. Alhamdulillah. I noticed a very positive occurrence on my blog recently.  A woman’s dua for her future husband has remained the top most viewed post since the date of its publication in 2012. I didn’t know I’m sowing a seed. The total views it has gained so far are 16,585 on wordpress alone. I haven’t even counted the views it received on my independent domain.

16,585. Though I’m not the original author of the poem, but the fact that it has touched so many hearts, humbles me.

I would like to take this moment to revitalize our memories and post it, once again, making it the second post on khanumsays, to be shared twice.

Please note: A dua in Islam does not include rhyme, therefore, the content is more like a poem (creative writing) but whoever has written it, poured out the emotions of someone asking Allah for a loving Muslim spouse, and made an effort to capture the heart aptly. How sweet is that.

A Woman’s Dua for her future Husband

O Allah! Please grant me the one

Who will be the garment for my soul

Who will satisfy half of my deen

And in doing so make me whole

Make him righteous and on your path

In all he’ll do and say

And sprinkle water on me at Fajr (Early Morning Prayer)

Reminding me to pray

May he earn from halal sources

And spend within his means

May he seek Allah’s guidance always

To fulfill all his dreams

May he always refer to Qur’an

and the Sunnah as his moral guide

May he thank and appreciate Allah

For the woman at his side

May he be conscious of his anger

And often fast and pray

Be charitable and sensitive

In every possible way

May he honor and protect me

And guide me in this life

And please Allah! Make me worthy

to be his loving wife

And finally, O Allah!

Make him abundant in love and laughter

In taqwa and sincerity

In striving for the hereafter!

May Allah grant all the Muslim sisters with such husbands… Ameen ya rabbel alameen”

 

Text from original post in 2012: I came across this beautiful dua somewhere on internet and really wished to share it with my readers.  it actually teared me a bit. It reminded me of the song by Maher zain, “For the Rest of  My Life”.  May Allah swt bless my sisters /correct lost souls all by granting such an honest and virtuous spouse who may lead my sisters and brothers even In Islam to the path of  Jannah and help them prepare for the akhirah as they walk in this world hand in hand. Ameen!

I wanted to write down a poem/dua in reply to this myself from a man’s perspective but since m not on writing mode these days I thought of sharing this one. JazakAllah for reading!

I do not own the pictures or the text.

May 18, 2018

Reflections I – The Little Plant with Big Leaves

by Khanum

اِهۡدِنَا الصِّرَاطَ الۡمُسۡتَقِيۡمَۙ‏  – Show us the straight way, (Surah Al-Fatiha,  Verse 5)

Have you ever looked at something in nature, that has given you the drop dead gorgeous feeling and still managed to leave you questioning, what is it about it that I am still looking at it? Why do I keep returning to look at it as if it has something to teach me?

There’s this little plant, in our courtyard in one of the kayaariz that we have. Little than me, but with leaves larger than my hands. They almost remind me of an elephant’s ears. I was sure it is a new plant until few moments ago, Allah swt returned to me, my memory of it and I remembered, I have seen it before, in its pre-mature days. This was the plant that we almost buried beneath the rocks and other decorative plants sometime ago, around March, unknowingly.

I remember seeing one leaf of it coming out of the rocks, pushing forth weeks ago, whenever I would inspect the plants. I for one, had no idea, it is a plant, to begin with. A weed, perhaps? My thoughts were somewhat on the similar line. It was nothing extra ordinary. Just a green leaf, making its way out of the pebbles. I would water it now and then, just to see the fresh green color returning to it after a drink. SubhanAllah, that was it.

But Allah swt knew, there is more. More to come of it, and I would see it one day, just to reflect on its stature, the way it stands, smaller in size but grown up, and heart shaped leaves larges than my own palms to inspire me and a way of standing with grace, to speak of Allah’s Mercy upon it.

“And Allah knows, while you know not.” (Quran, 2:216)

“But they plan and Allah plans and Allah is the best of planners” (Quran, 8:30) 

Could I have planned or even designed that moment for someone to take inspiration or guidance from? No..

“And Allah guides whom He wills to the straight path.” (Quran, 2:213)

“Indeed, (O Muhammad), you do not guide whom you like, but Allah guides whom He wills. And He is most knowing of the (rightly) guided.” (Quran, 28:56)

“Light upon Light. Allah guides to His Light whom He wills.” (Quran, 24:35)

Exactly which of the things in my courtyard are there that do not remind me, or force me, to ponder upon His Grace? Surprisingly, everything has a purpose. They return me to Him, in a beautiful way, again and again. And I’m left thinking, which of the favors of our Lord can we deny? None. One by one.. we begin to see these favors, as we cultivate the right mindset. Only, with His will and Help. Which is why, it is so important, to ask Allah swt, to favor you with the right mindset for guidance. For guidance is the most precious gift of Allah swt in this life. From this gift, gush forth rivers of further blessings and presents. Without it, we are deprived.

The rank & growth this plant has received, in a couple of few weeks is a beautiful reminder. Where as my limited sight could not see, its future and significance, Allah swt, had a plan for this little fellow. Just like He has a plan for all of us.

Allah swt had a way for it to realize it’s way up, and grow under His watchful eyes and ever nurturing and protective Nature. Just like He is guarding and nourishing us, with His protective Nature.

Also, Allah wisely knows that when we reflect upon His creation, there appear the Signs of His Majesty that return us to Him in attractive ways. So He made the stars, the beautiful forests, birds, greenery and every tiny insect with precision while keeping us in mind. This is His Rahma, Mercy.  So that one focused on finding Allah’s signs, can be facilitated. And reassuringly, one who is sincerely focused on finding Allah’s Signs, cannot remain without seeing His Signs all over the Universe. It is inevitable. He calls our attention towards things, for nothing but to Guide. For He is Al Hadi ; The Best of Guides.

Moreover, how wonderful it is that He is Al Baseer, The One Who Sees everyone and everything. Here seeing does not merely means to see what is in the present. He sees your future, and beyond the realm of time itself.

Alhamdulillahi Rabil Alameen for the way He looked into my future, the way He placed this plant before my eyes, and made me reflect upon so many things in one go. In a way, we grew side by side all these weeks without ever knowing, or worrying how the other one is being nourished. This is Allah’s beauty and sustenance once again. SubhanAllah.

“On earth there are signs for those with sure faith; and in yourselves too, do you not see?” (Quran, 51:20-21)

I encourage you to gently ponder. Look around you and ask yourself, what are my surroundings trying to tell me? For surely, there is a God.

 

To be continued… إن شاء الله‎

May 15, 2018

How does it feel like?

by Khanum

How does it feel like?

It feels like coming home.

How does it feel like?

It feels like anything I’ve never felt before..

How does it feel like?

It feels calm, light and familiar

How does it feel like?

It feels like tranquil and sober.

How does it feel like?

It feels like putting down my bags, smiling and looking at the walls of my own comfortable home

How does it feel like?

It feels like God really knows.

How does it feel like?

A long walk back to myself

How does it feel like?

It feels like I finally understand.

And the windows? The neighbours. Where are they, have they moved back or moved on?

How does it feel like?

It feels like, empty rooms next door

How does it feel like?

Like everyone is on a journey. But I’m back home.

How does it feel like?

It feels like going on a sweet bicycle ride, on my own

How does it feel like?

It feels like a happy rainy storm

How does it feel like?

It feels really light on my feet

How does it feel like?

 Like contentment seeping into me.

How does it feel like?

It feels like, looking at a familiar moon.

How does it feel like?

Like I’m me again,

yet renewed.

 

 

Dedicated to my old wordpress blog, and renewal of faith. When you are you again, and also new. That feeling, of having wings, and being at peace with your choices, to draw closer to simple things in life, and God. How does that feel like? … It feels like, coming home.

And the neighbors? Almost every other blog I used to know on word press, is either set to private, abandoned or refurnished and then abandoned. I guess they are still on their journey. How does that feel like? Perhaps, they too are looking for their homes. 

May 14, 2018

The Tree in my Courtyard

by Khanum

Have you ever looked at something not in its best shape, thought to yourself sadly how it will never be whole again and then when you looked at it again after sometime, you were amazed by it’s revival and beauty?

It happened to me few days back. While noticing a lifeless small tree in our courtyard, early in the morning. I paused by it and said to myself, we shouldn’t have cut it down. It was lifeless. No leaf survived. Just a stick, a bamboo, a pole of wood was standing before my eyes, with no sign of the once heavy bushes and greens on it.

A week passed by, and just like that as I roamed in the courtyard, looking at the plants and thinking about my own dilemmas in life. My eyes went towards that corner. There! It was green again. I swear, just like that, there were leaves that were not there before. How Allah how? I was so much surprised that I had to take a closer look. Just one week had passed by hardly, and really? So much had changed? Life was brought back to it. Whereas I had looked at it as something dead now, taken it merely as a piece of wood, it was looking back at me as something new and alive.

And Allah sends down rain from the skies, and gives therewith life to the earth after its death: verily in this is a Sign for those who listen. – 16:65

SubhanAllah, my heart recited. It was Allah’s way of telling me, He is In-Charge of creating and destroying. He is in control of giving life after death and creating something back again from the ashes. It was Allah, telling me, my problems, too shall pass, and the weakness that I felt inside, was soon to be turned into strength. All we have to do in such times, is have faith in the Creator for Whom, nothing is impossible and keep walking towards Him.

I remember inspecting every plant that morning and the next morning and even till-date, every rose that dies, I swear to you, it blooms again. In our courtyard, it is a like a cycle of life and death, and then life again. I look at a flower worn out one day, and in the next few days, it smiles at me once more with a new bud, new colors, new form and more beauty.

What is it if not a Sign of Allah’s Majesty and Glory?

It is He Who brings out the living from the dead, and brings out the dead from the living, and Who gives life to the earth after it is dead: and thus shall ye be brought out (from the dead). – 30:19

If you are feeling your emaan has faded or died, and needs revival. Have faith, for it will bloom again. Just like the tree in my courtyard. Exactly like that tree in my courtyard, with Allah’s fine work on you and His Fine infinite Mercy. For it is His supreme ability to create the finest of things.

May 14, 2018

Ahad Ahad …

by Khanum

Bismillah. It is 2:13 AM here, and what in the name of Allah am I doing here?

Well, I’m sitting on my bed, smiling to my adult self like a child, who is extremely and thoroughly pleased with herself for coming home. 🙂 Before me is my first baby blog, where I have moved back. Did I not tell you I am closing down khanumsays.com the domain? What a relief it has been to come to this decision. Yes, yes,! I cannot explain the happiness and lightness I am feeling in my being for embracing my simple wordpress blog and leaving the giant domain that I had purchased for God knows what reasons. It will be gone by May next year as the package expires. And you know what? After going through such lovely old posts on my original blog, there’s something I would love to share, once again, to commemorate the essence of Khanumsays.

Ahad Ahad… Now posted for the second time. The only post, to be shared twice on Khanumsays.


Why shed these tears of sorrow?

Why shed these tears of grief? Ya nafsy how soon you forget, After trials come sweet relief

Why turn you from Ar-Rahman? Why yearn for a listening friend? Ya nafsy, do you not remember, On ALLAH (SWT), you must depend?

Have you not read those stories, Of the trials in days gone by, Of the Sahaba beloved by ALLAH (SWT), Who for ALLAH (SWT)’s cause did strive?

Why loosen your hold upon Him? Why fling away, His outstretched Hand? Ya nafsy, do you not remember, Bilal’s Sabr on the blazing sand? “

“Ahad! Ahad!” He cried, While his flesh did drip and burn. “Ahad! Ahad!” He cried, To ALLAH (SWT) alone he turned.

Have you forgotten the firmness of Hamza, As the gleaming swords did fall? With Sabr he turned to ALLAH (SWT), As the Quraish did slice and maul.

Why drown in salty tear drops? How can you dare compare your pain? To that of Yasir and Summayah, As they lay tortured on the scorching plain?

Have you forgotten the charring of Khabbab, As on burning coals he lay? Ya nafsy how meager your suffering, Wherefore do you lose your way?

Why befriend you not Al-Wali? Why not in Salaah to Him complain? Like Job who only to Allah, Turned in all his grief and pain?

Forget you that trials in this life, Cleanse your heart and make it clean? Ya nafsy, why all this sadness? Do you not wish your heart to gleam?

Be patient in all your hardships, ALLAH (SWT) hears your cries of woe. So trust Him and His Hikmah, For He knows best and not you.

So tighten your hold upon Him, Lest He withdraw His outstretched Hand! And remember the example of Bilal, As he lay anchored on the blazing sand.

“Ahad! Ahad!” he cried, While his flesh did drip and burn. “Ahad! Ahad!” he cried, To ALLAH (SWT) alone he turned.

Author unknown

 

November 6, 2011

Dear God

by Khanum

I write to you again ,  on this auspicious day to mention what things worry me in life which was given by You.

Life’s a beauty and a bounty, My Master. I am not denying that. But sometimes it grows  quite heavy on your servants.  We begin to feel tired and alone. I cannot deny this either…

Our hearts begin to carry  a crucial worry that never lets us rest. A worry that sleeps when we’re asleep and awakens as we rise. It stops when we  think of You and deepens when we  see someone happy and we let the Satan whisper in our ears. He whispers, ‘Don’t pray and don’t Trust He will show you an escape, You will never have that happiness’ , so we stop believing.

I have such a worry too , Dear God!  I am in trouble and I am in this trouble ,  Alone!

One minute the world is okay – the next it’s again void , empty and hollow.

I may very well let this routine continue, let this time pass out and let this worry wrinkle me and take me away from you … but suddenly – You – make it easy for me to see what You have been wanting me to do..You save me.

I realize something and Oh! the beauty of it Allah! I suddenly rejoice and cry words of  thanks, words of  forgiveness.

Even though I know I have wrecked things in life … The Beauty of Your love in my heart says , You will still make it better.

I joyously make wudu, I humbly establish salaat and then miraculously , just like out of the blue,  You appear in my heart. You truly, truly appear as peace in my heart. And In that brief moment, I am assured  its a proof  you wanted me to call out for You.

And I do call out for you.

Had there been no courage no support from you to pray , how would the world had survived after all Allah ? I cannot imagine that.

And because I cannot imagine You as anything else but Mercy and Sustainer of the worlds – who can do EVERYTHING – I will write to you again and again . Because now I know, Dua and Qadr (predestination) are both a part of Allah’s plan. And a gift when we’re lost.

Accept the prayers of this servant Ya Allah, and grant me , my parents, my future spouse, my loved ones and my descendants a pious life and make us your humble Obedient servants. Let the children of my children walk the straight path, serve your deen in every way possible and die on Deen ul Haq. Ya Allah Ya Rabul Alameen, You are the Most High and Most forgiving!  Forgive my sins, Allah, forgive my sins. Forgive my sins. Forgive my sins. And let me die with Your Praise on my tongue.

Yours forever,

Khanum…

“Do not despair of solace from Allah (swt). No one despairs of solace from Allah except for people who disbelieve.” [Surah Yusuf, 87]

P.S. You didn’t summon for me this year for Hajj, Allah?…  I truly wanted to be there but its alright, I’m hoping you would call me next year? I love you! Please do consider calling me there with my mehram ? Please? I’ll be ever thanful…..