Posts tagged ‘friend’

October 13, 2013

Can we say Alhamdulillah for Pringles?

by Khanum

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Yes we can. Its one of the most expensive chips out there. Not many can afford it trust me. I’m lucky to eat it for probably the 5th time in my life.

So much happened in past few days.

Lost another year,  had birthday on 5th October.  And since am not a birthday person , I peacefully spent the day with family doing nothing but rest. The only thing special about this birthday was my typhoid – I am not complaining or anything, Alhamdulillah it was just typhoid nothing like cancer –  and then the beautiful evening.

After eating alot of bad taste medicines I started crying for a box of pringles just like that. Actually my mum asked me what I want for my birthday. I shamelessly demanded pringles. So my dear mum May Allah bless her and my lovely family gave me the big surprise. They know how I would have refused a birthday cake or any kind of celebration so they did what a loving stubborn family does. First they handed me my pringles and then they made me cut the pastry instead of a cake.

-____- my mother even put a candle on it and sang me a song. It was weird but lovely.

Then the next day came and just when I thought Life’s perfect now I lost a friend, someone very close to my heart. But you can’t always control life,you know. If people wanna replace you with someone better, they will. If people wanna compare you , or belittle you. They will. You just have to accept the bitter reality and gobble it down to your humanly throat. I gobbled it down with a glass of Alhamdulillah. May that friend live a prosperous blessed life. Ameen.

Then the next day came. I had fever and a broken heart. And Just when I thought I would collapse right before my viva. Allah saved my soul. My teacher came and said I know you can do it. Just hold on.

1 hour later . I passed my viva for the thesis with flying colors.

I’m 25 today. I’m not satisfied with myself. There’s much work I still have to do to earn my ticket to Jannah. No kidding. I’m terribly afraid of birthday each year cause am afraid of death coming to me – approaching me before I have pleased my Lord! I need time and time has managed to prison us all.

But yet the fear of death shouldn’t stop us from appreciating life. Alhamdulillah for everything He has given me. Everything I am everything I own , is His Mercy. I’m nothing.

I’m nothing but startdust … like you… who sometimes enjoy eating pringles.

October 1, 2011

“The greatest gift you can give to someone is the purity of your attention.” -Richard Moss

by Khanum

It’s a strange feeling when you have tons to say but you can’t utter a single word. It’s  even a double fold strangest moment when you have many to hold onto, but none to understand your sorrow.

I’m wordless but  – I have feelings to pour down on this digital page. My friend’s father passed away yesterday. . Today was the funeral.

What can you possibly say to a friend who is standing still over her father’s dead body – not even crying , not even complaining, not even uttering a single word or sigh…You become worried she might faint , she might hurt herself from the inside that she may collapse. In that strangest and most painful moment, you ask her to cry a little, shed a tear just one or two. Just something that can lessen her burden.  And then then when she starts to cry some tears of love for her beloved father – you can’t either see that. You beg her to stop.

It’s always like that. It has always been like that.  Hard very hard but at the same time natural to let go of someone you dearly loved. Whether it’s a friend or some stranger, we all come to learn that the rules of this world go straight and fair for everyone. I have attended 3 funerals in my life so far in my 23 years of  life and I simply hope and pray I never get to see more funerals.. I’m in constant worry over who would I see leaving this world next. .

Yes There have been many happy times we have shared, many occasions We were not able to live together anymore. But that’s okay. Being with people that too with friends in times of despair is another kind of bond. This post is a simple request, to ask you to gift 1 minute of your life to her father. Join your hands together, raise them up before God and say a word of prayer for Waheed Uncle.  May His Soul Rest in Peace. May Allah swt forgive his sins, and give him A high and a wonderful place in Jannah.

Ameen. Suma Ameen.

March 9, 2011

Her Heavenly Abode …

by Khanum


A letter to a friend far away

Sometimes to say good bye to someone you love is quite impossible. It is easy to say “see u later” instead.  But at a certain time in your life, there comes a moment when you have to face it.  You have to let go of someone you dearly loved whole your life. No matter how hard you pray, the wise men know there is simply no trade on death with God. As every soul shall have the taste of His decree. Such a bitter loss my friend, that has its shooting pain. I can only imagine as my time is yet to come, how painful it might have been for my friend, I can do nothing but only imagine.

If life is a book of colorful pages, I cherish its each color I shared with you. Colors of laughter love and joy….emotions I can never pen down. Such were the 20 young pages of my life with 85 of yours. Your companionship was indeed incomparable to any other object of the world. But holy wisdom lies in a calm surrender my friend; life is in fact no more than a brief existence, and we are sole travelers. It’s neither ours to give nor ours to take. Like a shell imprisoning the pearl. This body is a prison for the soul that demands to fly away one day, without any khalil, up onto the final abode. Where He has blessed: the Prophets, the foremost believers, martyrs and the righteous ones. So, today is a plain deal my friend, conditioned by death and remorse, tomorrow all the spirited ones leave the world at a constant loss.

Indeed sometimes to say goodbye to someone you love is quite impossible.

I know memories tend to fade away but they say heart retains its scars longer than any other part of the body. Along with the pleasant memories I hold in my heart, there are some regrets too that make me ache but make me love you more and more with each passing moon. Surely, I stand firm because of Him whose love is greater than our disappointments. It’s not easy my friend, but it’s His decree. I hear, I obey and surrender. So does every man.

You have gone away my friend. Your soul is free. But you’re still alive in my heart. I like to go back in time and remember old days, our offering juma prayer together in your favorite mosque, that white dress of yours and your beautiful emmbroided veil, a veil that sheltered me once from the sunrays, on our return to home.; your old kind eyes full of wisdom and your gentle calm face. The times you used to sit by my side whenever I was sick and pray with tears in your tender eyes. I still dream of your hands my friend, when I think of you, so soft like silk caressing my teary face.

Indeed sometimes to say goodbye to someone you love is quite impossible.

They say I am your reflection my friend, what a lie they tell. How could I possibly be pious as you? You were the height of righteousness while I ….Oh! How badly I wish, if I could turn the time back and end my grief. How badly I desire to right the wrongs of my yesterday, bring you back and sit next to you again. But Alas! Life is momentary and uncertain my friend, death is its part.

As patience is retained by the desert without rain, I shall have patience and remember you as my friend, O my beloved Nana. I shall pass your love to my children’s children. I shall walk on your footsteps and keep you alive in my heart. As time goes by, my memories will fade away but I shall always remember the one who caressed me and took my worries away. You and I belong to different worlds now but death is only a pause in this momentary life, a new life awaits. So when He will shower His rain upon me I shall meet you again. Until then I pray thee peace, my friend, whenever I kneel before Him in my prayer. I’ll grow older and older with each fleeting moment and memories will grow fainter so they say, but as long as my mortal heart will beat, I’ll keep in heart the day the angel of death took you to your heavenly abode…

Indeed sometimes to say good bye to someone you love is quite impossible.

But …We All belong to Allah my friend, to Him we return!

May Allah rest your soul in peace, my beloved Nana! I miss you. But One day, if Allah wills, we’ll surely meet.


Verily, Allah! Unto Him belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth, He gives life and He causes death. And besides Allah you have neither any Wali nor any helper.

Al Qur’an – Surah Taubah: 116

(In loving memory of my Nano… )