Posts tagged ‘reflections’

June 22, 2018

The Sherbat You and I need 5 times a day.

by Khanum
Here’s something interesting:
 
Allah swt has mentioned (sea) water in Quran nearly 32 times. And the Arabic word ‘Ma’ for water 63 times. Amazingly, Every time water is mentioned, it has a important story or implication with it. In simple sense, water is referred as something essential that sustains life.
 
In metaphorical sense,however, water is mentioned to speak about guidance. 🙂 Kabhi note karain tarjummah parh ke, what does it signal toward?
According to scholars, Guidance is like a drink. Like we need water daily, we need guidance daily and constantly to sustain good levels of emaan
 
The hikmah behind establishing salah, is that it serves as a crucial drink (water) for our emaan, our guidance. Because the heart is something that turns, so to keep the heart guided, it needs to stay connected to it’s Maker, else it fails to function. The fluids it needs, the water it requires, the drink, the sherbet it asks for, is face-time conversation with Allah swt, The Sweetest and One and Only Lord. And اهدِنَــــا الصِّرَاطَ المُستَقِيمَ is that Sherbat mixed with other duas and given to us as a complete drink in the form of Namaz.
 
The bottom line? Hang onto اهدِنَــــا الصِّرَاطَ المُستَقِيمَ
Buy it with your time. Buy 1 drink first. Sip more. Hold onto it. Kuch hojaye, jahan bhi hon, tamam kaam chor denge, pause kardenge sab kuch, pehle ye drink piyenge, esa wada karlen khud se. And phir ahista ahista, 5 waqt drink per ajayen. Apka dil khud hi le ayega apko. 🙂
اهدِنَــــا الصِّرَاطَ المُستَقِيمَ
We say this over and over again because we are forgetful and we really need it. We need this drink, this elixir for guidance, 5 times a day. Less than that hurts the heart, more than that, we could not bear, which is why 50 salahs were reduced to 5 only. 🙂
 
I honestly think, praying salah 5 times, and slowly developing adat for Tahajjud, can do miracles for your life. Your heart and your mind. I cannot say it will change the things around you overnight, it may if Allah wills. But it definitely, inshaAllah, works wonders on your inner world. You begin to see life through a fresh and new lens. Things begin to look unique and like never before. Allah speaks to you through different things, people, messages, epiphanies. And did not Allah say, He is near? He really is.
 
Say: Have you considered if your water should go down, who is it then that will bring you flowing water? Surah Mulk Verse 30.
 
Assalamo Alaikum. 🙂
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May 18, 2018

Reflections I – The Little Plant with Big Leaves

by Khanum

اِهۡدِنَا الصِّرَاطَ الۡمُسۡتَقِيۡمَۙ‏  – Show us the straight way, (Surah Al-Fatiha,  Verse 5)

Have you ever looked at something in nature, that has given you the drop dead gorgeous feeling and still managed to leave you questioning, what is it about it that I am still looking at it? Why do I keep returning to look at it as if it has something to teach me?

There’s this little plant, in our courtyard in one of the kayaariz that we have. Little than me, but with leaves larger than my hands. They almost remind me of an elephant’s ears. I was sure it is a new plant until few moments ago, Allah swt returned to me, my memory of it and I remembered, I have seen it before, in its pre-mature days. This was the plant that we almost buried beneath the rocks and other decorative plants sometime ago, around March, unknowingly.

I remember seeing one leaf of it coming out of the rocks, pushing forth weeks ago, whenever I would inspect the plants. I for one, had no idea, it is a plant, to begin with. A weed, perhaps? My thoughts were somewhat on the similar line. It was nothing extra ordinary. Just a green leaf, making its way out of the pebbles. I would water it now and then, just to see the fresh green color returning to it after a drink. SubhanAllah, that was it.

But Allah swt knew, there is more. More to come of it, and I would see it one day, just to reflect on its stature, the way it stands, smaller in size but grown up, and heart shaped leaves larges than my own palms to inspire me and a way of standing with grace, to speak of Allah’s Mercy upon it.

“And Allah knows, while you know not.” (Quran, 2:216)

“But they plan and Allah plans and Allah is the best of planners” (Quran, 8:30) 

Could I have planned or even designed that moment for someone to take inspiration or guidance from? No..

“And Allah guides whom He wills to the straight path.” (Quran, 2:213)

“Indeed, (O Muhammad), you do not guide whom you like, but Allah guides whom He wills. And He is most knowing of the (rightly) guided.” (Quran, 28:56)

“Light upon Light. Allah guides to His Light whom He wills.” (Quran, 24:35)

Exactly which of the things in my courtyard are there that do not remind me, or force me, to ponder upon His Grace? Surprisingly, everything has a purpose. They return me to Him, in a beautiful way, again and again. And I’m left thinking, which of the favors of our Lord can we deny? None. One by one.. we begin to see these favors, as we cultivate the right mindset. Only, with His will and Help. Which is why, it is so important, to ask Allah swt, to favor you with the right mindset for guidance. For guidance is the most precious gift of Allah swt in this life. From this gift, gush forth rivers of further blessings and presents. Without it, we are deprived.

The rank & growth this plant has received, in a couple of few weeks is a beautiful reminder. Where as my limited sight could not see, its future and significance, Allah swt, had a plan for this little fellow. Just like He has a plan for all of us.

Allah swt had a way for it to realize it’s way up, and grow under His watchful eyes and ever nurturing and protective Nature. Just like He is guarding and nourishing us, with His protective Nature.

Also, Allah wisely knows that when we reflect upon His creation, there appear the Signs of His Majesty that return us to Him in attractive ways. So He made the stars, the beautiful forests, birds, greenery and every tiny insect with precision while keeping us in mind. This is His Rahma, Mercy.  So that one focused on finding Allah’s signs, can be facilitated. And reassuringly, one who is sincerely focused on finding Allah’s Signs, cannot remain without seeing His Signs all over the Universe. It is inevitable. He calls our attention towards things, for nothing but to Guide. For He is Al Hadi ; The Best of Guides.

Moreover, how wonderful it is that He is Al Baseer, The One Who Sees everyone and everything. Here seeing does not merely means to see what is in the present. He sees your future, and beyond the realm of time itself.

Alhamdulillahi Rabil Alameen for the way He looked into my future, the way He placed this plant before my eyes, and made me reflect upon so many things in one go. In a way, we grew side by side all these weeks without ever knowing, or worrying how the other one is being nourished. This is Allah’s beauty and sustenance once again. SubhanAllah.

“On earth there are signs for those with sure faith; and in yourselves too, do you not see?” (Quran, 51:20-21)

I encourage you to gently ponder. Look around you and ask yourself, what are my surroundings trying to tell me? For surely, there is a God.

 

To be continued… إن شاء الله‎

May 15, 2018

How does it feel like?

by Khanum

How does it feel like?

It feels like coming home.

How does it feel like?

It feels like anything I’ve never felt before..

How does it feel like?

It feels calm, light and familiar

How does it feel like?

It feels like tranquil and sober.

How does it feel like?

It feels like putting down my bags, smiling and looking at the walls of my own comfortable home

How does it feel like?

It feels like God really knows.

How does it feel like?

A long walk back to myself

How does it feel like?

It feels like I finally understand.

And the windows? The neighbours. Where are they, have they moved back or moved on?

How does it feel like?

It feels like, empty rooms next door

How does it feel like?

Like everyone is on a journey. But I’m back home.

How does it feel like?

It feels like going on a sweet bicycle ride, on my own

How does it feel like?

It feels like a happy rainy storm

How does it feel like?

It feels really light on my feet

How does it feel like?

 Like contentment seeping into me.

How does it feel like?

It feels like, looking at a familiar moon.

How does it feel like?

Like I’m me again,

yet renewed.

 

 

Dedicated to my old wordpress blog, and renewal of faith. When you are you again, and also new. That feeling, of having wings, and being at peace with your choices, to draw closer to simple things in life, and God. How does that feel like? … It feels like, coming home.

And the neighbors? Almost every other blog I used to know on word press, is either set to private, abandoned or refurnished and then abandoned. I guess they are still on their journey. How does that feel like? Perhaps, they too are looking for their homes. 

May 14, 2018

Ahad Ahad …

by Khanum

Bismillah. It is 2:13 AM here, and what in the name of Allah am I doing here?

Well, I’m sitting on my bed, smiling to my adult self like a child, who is extremely and thoroughly pleased with herself for coming home. 🙂 Before me is my first baby blog, where I have moved back. Did I not tell you I am closing down khanumsays.com the domain? What a relief it has been to come to this decision. Yes, yes,! I cannot explain the happiness and lightness I am feeling in my being for embracing my simple wordpress blog and leaving the giant domain that I had purchased for God knows what reasons. It will be gone by May next year as the package expires. And you know what? After going through such lovely old posts on my original blog, there’s something I would love to share, once again, to commemorate the essence of Khanumsays.

Ahad Ahad… Now posted for the second time. The only post, to be shared twice on Khanumsays.


Why shed these tears of sorrow?

Why shed these tears of grief? Ya nafsy how soon you forget, After trials come sweet relief

Why turn you from Ar-Rahman? Why yearn for a listening friend? Ya nafsy, do you not remember, On ALLAH (SWT), you must depend?

Have you not read those stories, Of the trials in days gone by, Of the Sahaba beloved by ALLAH (SWT), Who for ALLAH (SWT)’s cause did strive?

Why loosen your hold upon Him? Why fling away, His outstretched Hand? Ya nafsy, do you not remember, Bilal’s Sabr on the blazing sand? “

“Ahad! Ahad!” He cried, While his flesh did drip and burn. “Ahad! Ahad!” He cried, To ALLAH (SWT) alone he turned.

Have you forgotten the firmness of Hamza, As the gleaming swords did fall? With Sabr he turned to ALLAH (SWT), As the Quraish did slice and maul.

Why drown in salty tear drops? How can you dare compare your pain? To that of Yasir and Summayah, As they lay tortured on the scorching plain?

Have you forgotten the charring of Khabbab, As on burning coals he lay? Ya nafsy how meager your suffering, Wherefore do you lose your way?

Why befriend you not Al-Wali? Why not in Salaah to Him complain? Like Job who only to Allah, Turned in all his grief and pain?

Forget you that trials in this life, Cleanse your heart and make it clean? Ya nafsy, why all this sadness? Do you not wish your heart to gleam?

Be patient in all your hardships, ALLAH (SWT) hears your cries of woe. So trust Him and His Hikmah, For He knows best and not you.

So tighten your hold upon Him, Lest He withdraw His outstretched Hand! And remember the example of Bilal, As he lay anchored on the blazing sand.

“Ahad! Ahad!” he cried, While his flesh did drip and burn. “Ahad! Ahad!” he cried, To ALLAH (SWT) alone he turned.

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May 13, 2018

Carissa Carandas: We have a genius plant and I didn’t even know.

by Khanum

Plants will surprise you. – Me.

Khanum enjoys story telling, so sit comfortably with a cup of tea and enjoy this short narrative.

What happened today may not happen tomorrow, what happens tomorrow, has not happened so far. 

I have no idea what I just typed, but I am going to leave that fancy wisdom as it is and continue writing about plants.

Bismillah. It surprises me sometimes, how the very small details elude us while we are searching for the big moments and breakthroughs. It so happened today evening that I decided to share a a video of a new plant at our home. I googled its name again to confirm I had it right. Sometime later, an impulse to get to know the plant more had me read through some facts about it. Probably, because I was not satisfied with posting just a picture of it. Who posts just the picture of a plant? It felt so empty and like a missing-the-point kind of a moment. So, naturally, I did the most bravest thing we all do to get things right. We ask google.

Here are some interesting facts that added to my knowledge of the plant, and I’m sure will add to yours, too.

  1. The fresh juice of the fruit of Carissa Carandas is consumed daily in dose of 15-20 ml to strengthen the cardiac muscles.
  2. It produces berry sized fruits 🍒 and is supposed to grow like a small tree.
  3. It is an Ayurvedic plant used for the treatment of acidity, indigestion, fresh and infected wounds, skin diseases, urinary disorder and diabetic ulcer.
  4. The fresh fruit is used to prepare, jam, jelly and even pickles.
  5. The paste prepared from the leaf or bark is applied over fresh wounds for its treatment.

SubhanAllah, the ways in which Allah benefits us through plants and animals.

As I type this, I cannot help but form an analogy which spoke to me the moment I learnt, how much I didn’t know about this plant. We go by things, objects, and even our people, without noticing how special they are. Let’s not go far, in fact, it can very well begin by our own selves. We spend years with ourselves, without really being familiar with our true essence or nature. Getting to know ‘you’ is a process, it deserves to be continued till our last breath, along with getting to know our surroundings.

 

 

The lesson I learnt was to pay more attention towards little things, they have a lot to say. And get to know myself better.  It doesn’t necessarily have to be an Eiffel tower like huge thing that gets our attention, but sometimes, even the smallest of the bug with its beautiful golden color, has a lot to make us wonder about our blessings, and reflect upon the ways of Our Creator.

Now, the main event. It was bought for Rs 200 only. Quite inexpensive given its uses, and beauty. But it will take it years to grow tall. So a lot of love and care has to go in.

As I said, plants will surprise you.

 

January 3, 2014

Green Tea Analogy.

by Khanum

greenteaI’ve a habit of reading newspaper in the kitchen either in the early morning or the evening. There, sitting by the fire alone with a cup of tea it all becomes bearable to go through all the cruel events in the paper and life in general. But today, before I could enter it first, I found my mother busy making green tea there already. The Kashmiri Sabz chai you know.

I couldn’t help but stare.

Her each step towards its making was so captivating that soon I found myself drawn towards the process rather than the editorial. I noticed her getting tired at the continuous whisking and whipping the hot tea while slowly adding in the cold water to complete the procedure.

Why don’t you rest your hand,  take a break now? I suggested.

I can’t. She mean’t it.

That green-tea. I have to keep working at it at a constant rate for fruitful result otherwise! One moment of ghafalah and there goes my tea..

Right..

A voice inside my head that teaches us time to time , then began to work out a lesson.

How beautifully Allah has scattered the analogies for us to learn, in life, about life. I wondered.To learn and get back up on feet. To observe and get back to the origins, the very core of the life problems, and fix it through same daily life empirical thinking.

I saw the pink foam, welling up in the pot as my mother whisked the tea with persistent sincerity. The more you whisk it they say, the more it gets refined and this beautiful pink shade begins to appear in the foam– a sign of perfect taste.

It was working. An outcome of her constant & sincere striving.

She smiled. I smiled back at her. The newspaper that I had been reading earlier, now lay folded in my lap. I began to stare back at it.

Life is like that, Mum. I spoke my mind after several long moments.She nodded. Life is exactly like that.

Photograph taken from flickr.